My Heart

I really don't know where to start on the this and the next bunch of pictures. The Lord brought us to the Philippines to live and be a part of the people. We are on an island that is 50% poverty, 80 % child and teen incest, sodomy and rape and 90% dedicated to idols at birth. We have been here 15 months now and I am just able to start posting about the children and teens and people here. We love them all and we are happy to be here. But our heart has hurt more than we ever imagined was possible. It is not the safest place to be because we are "white" and they tell me I am the only white woman they have seen. Would we trade living here for anything. No, we are right where we belong. I look at these pictures and I cry all over again. These children are so beautiful and so hurt. We hold them as they sob and cry because of what they have been through and we know we have to send them back to the same situation. We tell them about the Lord but it is hard because we speak a different language but we are learning their language. The Lord gave us a wonderful interpreter and a wonderful Maestra (language teacher). Both the interpreter and Maestra have stolen our hearts. They call us Mama and Daddy and we feel honored. Many have become so precious to us.

We have many people to thank, Patty & Loretta and others who send us clothes & soaps and necessities to take to the village people. The wonderful Intercessor's at LifeWay Church. The need here is so great that it gets overwhelming sometimes. We could not do this without the help So Thank you all.
This is an ongoing story so please follow with us as we walk through each day not knowing what the day will bring.

Friday, December 1, 2017

Thank you to all the kids who sent cards

O.K  we are going to start today on a note of big thanks.  To all of you who sent cards you made a big, big thank you.  We didn't get to go to all the places that the cards went because many went up into the high mountain villages. But I can tell you the report we got from one of the pastors who has a number of mountain churches that they were so blessed and they are trying to find a way to make you  all cards to send back to you in thank you.  What an awesome heart and idea you had. This is something that they have never seen and never knew anyone even cared about them.  Thank you, thank you, thank you to each and every one of. you.  You are absolutely amazing .  👍💗

This is a hard one .....


This is a real hard one for us.  We found this 13 year old girl wondering the streets, she wouldn't look at us.  So I asked my interpreter to ask her where she was going and she said she didn't really know.  She had walked for miles and we found her around the corner from our apt..  Her hands were clinched tight and I managed to open them and the palms of her hands were callused with puncture holes, some old and some relatively new.  Her fingernails look like some one who has worked in the dirt for years, they are so ingrained with dirt and split and callused.  I asked my interpreter what happened to the palms of her hands and she said that "certain people" do that to make the girls bodies not feel the pain so they can do what they do to them.   We told her where we lived and that if she ever wanted to get help we would help her.  We have not seen her since but again these are the kind we want to rescue and teach and heal so they can have a real life instead of getting older and taking care of themselves by the only way they have been treated.  

Here is a cutie ;)

This little girl wonders the open market,  I know nothing about her parents but she seems to get things to eat from some of the market sellers.   My interpreter came to me and said "we need clothes and shoes for a little girl". So she picked out some clothes for this cutie and took them back to dress her. Someone sent the shoes and socks and tops and everything. She really felt like she was something else in them.  Gold shoes,  and when I saw them in the box I wondered who the Lord wanted to have those shoes.  Well now we know.  And she loved the socks .  Look at that pose.  She is feeling really special.  Isn't that what it is all about ?  These children just steal your heart. 
We talk about the abuse of the children but along with that there are multitudes of women who suffer the same abuse.  When I saw this woman she was huddled in a corner and I tried to get her to come out of the corner wall but she wouldn't.  She doesn't talk or anything.  After 3 visits to that mountain place I finally got her to come to me.  I talked softly to her and said I  was sorry for what she had been through. People say she is crazy because she just huddles and doesn't talk.  She has been so abused her relative told me.  Finally when we were leaving I went to her and told her that I loved her and I would be back with some nice clothes for her and some necessities.  (Thank you to all of you that send things like that and the nice soaps and everything. So I have some things for her and someone send jewelry and I have a bracelet for her to wear so that overtime she looks at it she will remember she is loved.  When I went to walk out the door I said to her I love you and I will see you soon and she tried so hard to smile but it was enough to show me that she wanted to be loved and understood.  

I said I wouldn't cry..

I said I wouldn't cry when I posted this one but it just breaks my heart. This little girl you can tell by her face the abuse she has suffered. She wouldn't let me hold her or touch her and for my husband to try would have caused her more pain.   Oh how I wanted to love her and tell her it would be alright but how do you say that when they have to go back into the same "physical" abuse.  Somedays it is so hard to see them and  leave them.  Please forgive me but it just hurts so bad.  

It is ones like this that get to our heart


There are so many of these babies and women who live in just a tiny space.  The 1st picture shows the entire,  I don't know what to call it, it is like a hole in the wall,  no lights , no water , nothing just a floor and walls.  This woman's husband left her and she had no clothes for her baby.  Our interpreter came and asked if we had some clothes for this naked baby.  Thank you to all of you who send baby clothes and other clothes and things.  We were able to fit the baby and give the momma so clothes for it and  some baby formula .  She has 2 other sons that I will post pictures of that had no real clothes.   The picture is below.

These 2 boys

These two boys break my heart.  They live in a small little place  with their mama and their new brother. Above is a picture of it.  They were so dirty and had no clothes that are fit to wear that were clean.  The little boy with the shaved head had lice so someone shaved his head.  Lice is a big problem here and even in churches or places you will see people, children picking lice out of each others hair and squeezing the lice and throwing them on the floor.  With all the hugging we do I am surprised that we have not gotten lice. Anyway they now have some clothes instead of the one set they had.  Also thank you to all who send the things and they got some flip flops too.  They did't have an thing to put on their little feet. 

O.K. I can't help but .....


I can't help but smile when I see this picture.  When I saw this on her up in one of the mountain villages I knew it was perfect for her. And she was so happy with it.  I had to take a picture of her. O.K.  I admit I took 3 or 4 pictures of her.  She loved this and isn't she adorable.  Thank you to all of you who help us out by sending the childrens and the babies and all the clothes for the people and also the supplies and medical supplies.  It is so needed here.  This island is not like the main islands of the Philippines,  it is so badly poverty and abuse.  So thank you more than you will ever know.  

O.K. I admit it ;)

I admit it,  this little girl stole my heart.  She just kept looking at me and wouldn't take her eyes off of me. I wanted to take her home with me.  She is in a high mountain village..  Every time I look at this picture I tear up.  I wanted to take her with me but alas we still don't have the orphanage we want.

What a cutie

Someone sent some "onesies" baby clothes and can you tell this made this little boy so happy.  He seemed to know that he looked good ;). Thank you to who ever sent them all.  They are so needed because so very many of these babies have hardly any clothes if any at all.